10101101101110. Pretty awesome eh?
Once upon a time the 1’s and 0’s used to do it for me…not anymore. As a programmer I’m spent, burnt, depleted, drained…done. I still program for a living but the honeymoon is over. I find very little satisfaction and enjoyment in programming like I once did. I tried to pinpoint the moment it happened…was it at HomeStar Communications where I went the last 3 months without getting paid? Maybe it was at Caldera before they became SCO. Or perhaps it was SCO. Regardless of when it happened, the fact is, it happened, and now I’m stuck here in a profession I no longer enjoy.
When I first chose programming as a career (or did it choose me?) I thought I wanted to work with computers instead of people. People intimidated me. Now all these years later the words of Albert Einstein speak to my soul:
“A human being is a part of a whole, called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest… a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.” (emphasis added)
I’m deluding myself into thinking I can spend a lifetime surrounded by computers, code, bits and bytes. This is my prison from which I need to be freed and it can only be done by “widening [my] circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures”.
It’s all about the people.